Tuesday, October 03, 2006
A testimony for those of you who do not believe in God or have trouble trusting God.
In 1997, I met a man who wanted to date me. I never would give him a chance, because I was dating my ex husband. In order for him to even TALK to me, I made him fill out a 200 question application. To add insult to injury, I did not return the favor of the application. Yeah, I’m a brat!
In 2005, I received an email from this man through an email address on my business card from 1997.
I was very happy to hear from him, as I had thought about him often on my long journey those years.
He told me that I would date him for a year and then decide if I was going to marry him.
“Fair enough”, I said.
Several months into this, I REALLY began to seek God’s input on this. It seemed like the perfect cookie cutter story for me, complete with a young 4-year-old girl to raise. I could be a Mommy again!!!! To someone who thought I was their new, bestest friend.
However, I would have to give up everything and move away. My church, my house, my job.
I pleaded to God that I really needed to know something about this situation. These were big decisions for someone to make of my age.
I asked God for a dream. He gave me one that night. I was on a hill. It was windy. There were papers blowing around. This man was walking away from me. He was very unhappy that he was walking away from me. My sister was there. She picked me up and drove me up a hill. My dog was with us.
I was confused in the morning. What does THIS mean?, I pondered.
That night I asked for another dream. I got one. The results were very clear. This man was standing on the front lawn of his house with a pregnant woman, next to a tree. My newest best friend, Anny, was running around on the grass, being crazy as she always is. I remember seeing her run in and out of the house with some chocolate chip cookies.
I was not confused THAT morning. I said, “Uh oh, oh no!” I asked God, “What did the first dream mean?” He let me know that this man would be tired of waiting for my divorce papers to be finalized, since it had been a long ordeal, from the start to the finish.
I continued to see this man until he told me that he “could not do this Fresno / Sacramento thing.” I told him “Whatever he thought best, as I was the one driving 300 miles one way to see HIM each Saturday.”
It hurt a lot, but I knew that I needed to trust what God revealed to me in that dream.
Today, I received a phone call from this man. He was very upset. He is in a situation where he thinks he will lose everything. Also, he is expecting an unwanted baby. The girl had recently been moved into his house but is now living elsewhere, wondering why in the world she couldn’t change him.
How very scary that God showed me these things. But how very blessed I am that God loves me enough to protect me from a situation that he did not want me in.
And that’s my story of today.
